One of the elements of Normality that I have always struggled with is how many things can be balanced simultaneously. Then, after a time, it became apparent that I was not alone, that this process of routine was difficult for many people. What seemed to make the crucial difference was money: the more that was available, the easier it became to smooth out the edges.
Except this process has never been exact and those people who will tell you their lives are perfect thanks to routine are often not telling the whole truth. Let’s be honest, sorting truth from lies is now the bigger problem in maintaining any sense of balance and harmony in life, unless you can afford to lock yourself away from reality completely, but even that is not a guarantee of nirvana.
I have no idea how I balance this all going forward.
Yesterday, I went too hard on the exercise and it knocked everything out of alignment. This morning, after I have written this, we will attempt to take a portion of what yesterday taught us and make it into something else. Then, after some organisation, we will finish what needed to be done yesterday and accept what has been learned, in an attempt to hard bake it into habit.
This is all I will ever be able to do. The fact it’s taken a whole lifetime to get to this point might be viewed in a certain light as suboptimal, but there’s nothing that can be done about time wasted. All we have is that time that has not yet been used in which to work from. I can feel comfortable that, right now, that is providing results. For instance, looking back at the last three months, I have a 100% success rate in submissions to lit mags. That has NEVER happened before.
It may not last that long either, but it’s a decent indicator of progress.
With that in mind, it’s time to eat this protein bar and head out to the Gym. I’ll see you with the Frees Poetry Chapbook Later (TM) :D